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| Last sunday, I was glad to sit on a message presented by an elder sister of the church. That message revolved around our spiritual life and the existence of eternity. I had once remembered hearing a similar message presented about 10 years ago. The difference is how it made me think about my own spiritual life. I would view my spiritual life as weak, but the principles of a good christian remains. At many points of my life, my spiritual life has been weakened by the environment possibly causing myself to rely more on myself for the last several years. In fact, I had formed a wall that was so hard to penetrate that no one knew who I really am. This wall and I have lived side by side and I have endured it for so long. This wall was strong enough that my spiritual life would lay dorment possibly to the end of my life. To be continued...... | | |
| As the days go by, I am beginning to adjust well to my second job. I am also starting to work out again. The last two days, I spent almost 30 minutes jogging after work. I also feel excited in getting back in shape even though my time is limited.
While at work, I think a nurse about my age was given me the stare. When we finally talked, she smiled and introduced herself to me. She added, "Nice to meet you." I kinda picked up a vibe she was interested in me. Though at the time, I didn't notice it, but I am happy that everyone I have met has been very helpful in my orientation.
I also want to thank kevin for helping with my new home today. I went ahead with mowing the lawn while kevin did the wallpaper. I had posted a lot of the pictures of my house on my facebook. So feel free to add me on facebook.
As one becomes more independent, one becomes more open and tolerant as I see.
Allen | | |
| going to just focus on working... | | |
| Finished the theory training on the CVADs (ie. PICC, Porta-Cath, etc.) and cardiovascular system yesterday. Began the medi-tech training this morning. Drove a nurse to work this am since she was having trouble making it to the classes the last few days due to day care issues. I met a few interesting people including managers and a director. The CPL seemed to express an interest in me for mental health, which does seem interesting since my experience in this field is very limited. However; I do think if I do get involved, my technical skills will be lost which I tried really hard to keep up.
I began to look differently at the things that happened to me, even if it is unfair. I do believe God is watching over me and has given me grace. What is past will be left in the past. I think working in the more acute field has changed my perspective. I cannot downgrade myself to that level, or I will be no different than them.
At this point, I have forgiven the past and my focus is being there for a community that is in need of specialized care. I see that the population I am dealing with speak little to no english and its important that I advocate for their needs. I never thought of getting to where I am, but the path was paved without much plan. My hope is to get adjusted within the next few weeks. I met a few nurses already, some in ICU, and some in L+D. It was quite a fun orientation being with a group that likes to share and talk about their experiences. While in class, we each asked one another during computer training for things we didn't know just like how it was back in ye old days of high school. Seems the team work is more existing in this class than any of my experiences.
Need to plan for the move in May. Yea, I am moving again.
Void your senses and experience anew.
Allen
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| Time for an update. The good and the bad. I'll start with the bad since I can't believe I got into another car accident after 3 years. Totally scrapped my hyundai and wrote it off, but I wished the car in front of me on the 401 wouldn't slow so much. Now I am searching to buy another car, and probably a new car isn't the best idea given my record. Insurance is likely to skyrocket next year. I am estimating my insurance to be around 5-6k next year. Yea, that is my cost for driving instead of TTC, but how can I? Need it for both my jobs now. Right now I am depending on TTC and begging people to drive me to places. The good part is I got a full time at another hospital in the emergency department. My orientation begun last week. I wouldn't even consider working this hospital had my current job been better with management and fairness. At least my new hospital will not take staff for granted and place unreasonable blame. I don't even want to mention it, but all I can say is God is watching closely at the liars in my case. For any orientation, the worst part is sitting down and listening to presenters one after another. I am not used to sitting down for long periods and I guess that has made me more tired than usual. I look forward to learning everything I need to know, and I'm very excited at the same time. I also met a nurse who was around my age. Shortly after, we talked and I even got to know her bf, who drove me home. Well it was rush hour and we waited over 1.5 hours for her bf to come, but we killed time talking all that while. I think both of them are cool people, and if I ever got time, I'd like to hangout with them sometimes. My best friend also has been very active calling me the past week. I actually enjoy his company over the phone since I also learn what is going on in his life. He's the type that can't make good decisions and I end up stirring him in the right direction. Somehow, his emotions ruin his decision making and terribly he regrets some of the mistakes he has made. My message to him is prepare for the future. We also talked about working together in business, hope he gives it some thought. | | |
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